Cookies & Cream

Friend that can never be replaced

2011-08-09T00:16:00.002+08:00

Ismira and Austen.

These guys are probably the people I would never forget.

It's practically been us three since secondary school.

First there was Aisyah.

Somewhere between the lines,

she disappears

and poof,

came Nadia.

Even though there's bad vibes between Ismira and Nadia,

after hearing two sides of the story,

I can never think badly of her,

despite my feelings for Nadia.

Its best not to judge both parties

I have a feeling that Nadia is going to be out this time round.

I wonder who'll be next?

Anw,

what she says about Nadia makes some sense.

You're closed up and mysterious.

Would I really wanna know be with you,

but at the end of the day,

I still don't know much about you?

Hmmm,

I don't know.

But it certainly got me thinking....

The Final Chapter

2011-08-03T20:09:00.003+08:00

Oh,

how bitter sweet love is.

Finally,

it has come to an end.

She's seeing someone else

and she thinks she really like him.

Seeing that message,

it didn't hurt as much as I thought it would.

Probably because I've suspected it much.

Haiz.

But I do feel lost right now.

As if there's nothing to look forward to now.

Well,

life has to go on.

I don't know when we'll see each other again,

but till then,

I wish nothing but the best for you.

However,

I want you to know that deep inside of me,

I'll always love you,

Nadia.

Yours sincerely,

Hady.

Memories of none

2011-08-03T01:39:00.004+08:00

Here I am again.

Writing about you.

But this time,

its about memories of me and you during sec days.

I tried to think of any memorable memories of us,

but the weird thing is,

I CAN'T THINK OF ANY!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

In addition to that,

its also the fact that you sat beside me for a period of time.

Its like no matter how hard I tried,

memories of you back then was vague.

I think the oldest memories I have of you was during prom.

And now here I am,

thinking bout you.

Its like I've eating some sort of love potion or something.

Skali Nasi Kangkang eh?

HAHAHAHAHA.

Just kidding.

Hmmmmmm,

this is seriously becoming quite fascinating and in a way,

scary.

I wonder why I'm like this

I used to be so awesome

Now,

even though I'm still awesome,

I've become a little less awesome.

But I'm still awesome though,

don't worry future me.

Ugh,

it's okay.

If I can't remember any of the past memories,

I'll just make new ones.

Fate's a bitch

2011-07-26T02:55:00.003+08:00

Hmmm,

I don't know if its true but,

has she fallen for me?

If she doesnt then,

good.

But if she does,

I'm sorry E.

It not that you're not attractive or anything,

its just that

my heart is full at the moment.

But then it struck me.

The way I treat her,

feels like the way you are treating me.

I still don't know what you feel about me,

but it kinda make sense doesn't it?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I don't know.

I don't feel like asking anymore actually.

Back to normal self

2011-07-20T22:23:00.003+08:00

Woah,

I don't know why I was so emotional yesterday.

I think it was the song

ugh, so touching

..........

HAHAHAHAHA

It kinds of makes me pathetic eh?

Nah, I think it just makes me human

But where are you?

Nvr reply my message

-.-

but probably cause prepaid finished

but why u no go online?

how was I suppose to tell you that we need to talk?

now

macam dah tkde steam uh

HAHAHAHAHAHA

but I still want to know eh.

(plays tarzan song : I want to know)

Oh, see this girls eyes.

Stunning

T.H.E

E.N.D

Its time to move on

2011-07-20T01:59:00.003+08:00

I wish that we can be just friends

but the more I think bout it

I'm scared of losing you

I don't know what I am to you

and I can't move on not knowing

Part of me is scared to know the truth,

but the other just wants to move on

Be it that you don't see me in any other way,

it'll hurt, I know

but not knowing is killing me slowly

I want to know

End of year 2

2011-03-04T15:12:00.003+08:00

Finally,

it has came to the end of year 2.

A lot of things happened,

and a lot more didn't.

Even though I've fucked up my grades this year during 3/4 of the journey,

I did get A's and B's at the end,

so I hope it won't be too fucked up.

Currently,

I'm competing with Nurul Hakim.

Heh.

I won't reveal what it is cause its a secret.

HAHAHAHAHAHA.

I don't really plan on winning though.

Anyways,

went to watch movie yesterday.

Somehow,

it feels different.

Haiz.

I'm so bored right now.

Future seems bleak

2010-12-05T01:24:00.002+08:00

I cant sleep.

I alot has been in my mind recently.

I think its because of my latest result which is a C.

I dont know what I want to be in the future.

Should I still pursue Architecture?

But I am always getting a C.

Nazrul's finished his A' levels

and he knows where he wants to be.

Its not going for Uni, but becoming a conductor.

I feel kinda pathetic now.

God,

I know I did a bad thing today,

but please,

oh please,

show me the way.

Laundry

2010-12-01T01:05:00.003+08:00

Okay, I know this is a little too late since they've came back home already,

but what the heck ey?

Few days ago, mom, dad and the two sisters went to Penang,

leaving us boys.

Before going,

mom instructed me to wash the clothes.

It was fucking easy.

Just 3 simple steps.

Step 1: Put clothes in.

Step 2: Put the soap

Step 3: Press start.

Step 4: Wait.

Step 5: Wait a little longer.

Step 6: Wait, some more.

Step 7: Wait again. hahaha.

okay, enough waiting and take out the clothes and hang them to dry.

Okay, it does takes more than 3 steps for those seriously retarded people.

Oh, and be sure to seperate the white ones from the coloured ones.

Also, to put the towels in the bag before washing them together.

Wow,

seriously,

sometimes, I even amaze myself.

I hope somebody would say,

WOW HADY, YOU DID A GREAT JOB!

Now go and slack off all you want,

you deserve it!

HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Fuck yeah!

Awkward

2010-11-22T21:56:00.002+08:00

Oh god,

that was even worst than I had ever imagined.

However,

it kinda feels good to let it out.

Like a heavy load has been taken off my shoulder.

oh well,

whatever.

Time to move on I guess?

Hmmmm.

I'm tired.

I'm just goinna sleep it off.

Reality

2010-11-21T19:45:00.003+08:00

Okay,

who am I trying to kid right?

The truth is that I do it too.

In my mind, its always,

"Its just going out with a friend, not a big deal"

But the reality is that, it is.

It hurts.

Afterall, we're only humans.

With emotions and stuff.

Sometimes I wish I could be like Dexter.

Hmm,

that would be nice.

Do you deserve?

2010-11-20T22:18:00.002+08:00

This nostalgic feeling.

I hate it.

Its times like these that I ask myself,

"Do you deserve?"

My answer, honestly

"NO"

BP SUBMISSION

2010-11-11T03:02:00.002+08:00

Oh god, please give me an A for this.

I think I deserve it.

HAHAHAHAHAHA.

But seriously,

doing work in the middle of the night,

feels kinda lonely.

And I know its not like her to ask bout what I'm doing,

but sometimes,

I wonder if she even cares.

ITP

2010-09-06T23:27:00.002+08:00

Well now,

didn't really feel that nervous when going there.

The first half was the killer.

It was so fucking boring,

I nearly went mad.

However,

after the break,

things seems a little brighter

cause we only left afew hours till it ends.

What I learned today?

Need to get a fucking degree or

I'll be stuck doing that shit for the rest of my life.

nth much

2010-08-18T22:31:00.002+08:00

Oh man

Life gets boring when you're older.

Especially during holidays.

When I'm not working or going out,

I just rot at home all day.

The only thing that I would probably be looking forward to is to lepak at night.

Anyway,

yesterday when we lepak,

Ashraf came.

Its been a long time since we lepak.

He's a changed man, but for the better?

Nope. HAHAHAHAHAHA

He's darker, has an indian accent when speaking english and indon when speaking in malay.

Okay, so there's not much change in him except for those.

But I kinda pity him for

The night was strange.

We laughed just by looking at the others expression.

Anyway, so long bro.

So, the question now is,

what should I do tmr?

Urgh.

Holiday

2010-06-15T17:17:00.002+08:00

Its holiday now and thank god,

I've got things to do.

Like work, school stuff, skate, KL.

Over the weeks,

dont know how long its been,

I've kinda get over the whole crush thing,

but the worst thing is,

its beginning to get a little irritating, i think.

I dont know if its because she sometimes text me when I'm tired or whatsoever,

but everytime she does, its like,

"Haiz, malasnye nak reply".

But i did anyway.

What a good guy I am.

I love today, plus abit of yesterday.

2010-05-20T00:04:00.004+08:00

Today was great.

I can't explain it though.

I think its one of those times where nothing goes wrong.

I did my work, hang out with people, went skating and loads of fun in between.

Lepak kickflip and heelflip,

I am going to master you guys till I'm like super uber good.

Oh, there was one mistake I made though.

I took Luqman's hat and shades and ran.

At first, he just chase after me,

then he got pissed off and shouted.

So, I felt bad and return it, but then he said this,

" Congratulation, you have just started a cold war "

He's kinda like that if you know him - sensitive.

I tried apologising at first, but he would listen.

So, i gave him some time and when he returned from god knows where,

I apologised again.

Suprisingly, he accepted!

I thought it would take several weeks or even month like the last incident,

but then he said this,

" Its okay. I forgive you. I feel that being angry at you is kinda petty,
and plus, I know you'll do it again."

So, I replied (kinda loudly),

"OMG! YES! I'VE CHANGED LUQMAN!"

and ran off some fresh air.

However, I think I heard him shouting "NO YOU DIDN'T"

or something like that.

So, the moral of the story is,

Whatever you do in life, don't stop halfway.

I'm just kidding.

I think it should be something like "STOP BEING A JERK HADY!"

or something like that.

Yet, its not the end of this post, soon though.

Yesterday I finally went home with this girl from DLA.

She's hot but she's 19.

That night, I feel happy and miserable at the same time.

But, life has to go on so, maybe,

thought its a 1 in a million chance,

I'll ask her out or something.

Moving on

2010-04-19T22:25:00.004+08:00

It is as I expected,

I didn't tell her anything.

I think its best if we just remain friends.

The feelings have faded.

Time to move on.

CHICKIES, HERE I COME!

Okay, maybe not now since I look fugly at the moment

with my tanned skin and my short hair.

ABE sentosa outing

2010-04-18T01:10:00.004+08:00

The sentosa outing was great.

Play play play like nobody's business.

Of course it isn't anyway.

But the thing is, I'm super tanned

as dark as my little brother, the ain keleng.

But then, I don't really get to spend much time with her.

I feel kinda pathetic.

It's always been like this.

When my heart finally sway for someone,

there's always somebody else in the way

and then, I'll probably just give up.

Haiz, maybe I'll ask about her feelings this time

or not.

I don't know.

FOC

2010-04-13T00:06:00.002+08:00

FOC camp 03/04/2010

I can't really say that the camp was damn fun

because I was doing most of the backstage things.

LOGISTICS

but, I heard by most of the freshies that it was great.

so, oh well.

Lucky that all the hardworks that we put in was a worthwhile.

I've organised some camps during my secondary school days before

but MAN,

poly is one motherfucking step higher.

Everything has to be done ourselves.

Even I,

the logistics under the organising committee was stress at times.

We did had helps from the seniors (thank god for that)

but even so,

man it was fucking tiring.

Aside from that, there were alot of emotions being kept to ourself.

After the whole camp was over,

we, the OC, the GL, the helpers and the seniors sat in a classroom to have a debrief.

That was when all our emotions like totally explode.

Some cried tears of anger and other of appreciation.

One of them was me,

( yeah, i know right! someone as manly as me )

but, i admit,

i cried.

I was so touched by all the help that was given to me,

so when one of my friends talked about all the shits that my friends and i did,

tears just burst out.

I swear i tried to hold it in.

Okay, aside from the job that i had to do,

there were afew cute freshies.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Of couse I had the time to look at them even though im like missing most of the times,

but somehow,

when your heart is preocupied with one person,

you dont really have the time to bother with the others.

Class of 01/02

2010-02-25T21:53:00.005+08:00

Time pass us without us knowing.

In a blink of an eye, year 1 has ended.

Some of us managed to live for another year,

but there are also others who failed.

Yesterday,

the place was filled with joy and laughter.

its times like these that makes me look back at the past and smile.

Hush your lips, I'm about to speak up.

2009-10-21T20:57:00.003+08:00

I know I'm nothing but skin & bones,

But I sure think you're beautiful.

With your long, long hair and your big, blue eyes

I'm thinking 'bout making you mine tonight.

GEM

(General elective module)

was merepek nk mampos.

So many guys,

so little girls.

But luckily, I have Naufal,

my big sista and my cousin.

So, I guess I'll survive.

Busted sial.

2009-10-15T23:37:00.000+08:00

I BUSTED MY WRIST.

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Camp sometimes changes people.

2009-10-13T12:38:00.003+08:00

I am happy.

I am going out tomorrow.

Hope it will all work out somehow.

Can't wait.

FOT camp

2009-10-12T12:42:00.003+08:00

Camp was enjoyable in a wierd way.

Did supercrazy stuffs like being deserted in a dark place all alone for few hours,

and getting blind-folded while they bring you to all sorts of stations.

Funny part was when the camp seniors asked everybody's name

and I said, "My name is Jia Tong" and that friend of mine was like " WTF?!?!"

and all got 10 pumpings.

When I got home,

I feel rather depressed for no reason.

But I'm happy schools starting next week.

So,

have a great last week.

goodbye.

:)

Selamat hari raya 09

2009-09-20T01:29:00.002+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

this message goes out to all Muslims in the world,
and those who are reading.

First and foremost,

I would like to forgive all of you who have done wrong to me.

Next,

I would like to say you're welcome to those who have done wrong to me.

Lastly,

I would like to say I'm sorry to everybody,
which is kinda useless because I know that you all have forgiven me already,
because I'm so cute and innocent.

Just kidding.

Oh,

especially my little sister who I love to disturb,
calling her Nana gemok, black, boncet and many more.
(gemok = fat,boncet = big tummy)

Well then,

Have a good day.

Apple 3.142 is nice!

2009-07-04T00:11:00.004+08:00

Guess who's back?

And its not the,

its "Thee Apek".

Okay, that was so random.

Anyway, I found something very interesting on the web,

and I went like,
"WHAT! I MEAN WHAT!".
( that little? )

But I wonder who that could be.
Haiz,
so many candidates, so little spot.

After a few moment of silence,
I finally figured out who they are.
Lucky number on goes out to,
drum roll please,

"dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb"

"Yan Jun!"

Congratulation!
Now, you can sell your brain in Ebay at a high price!
( since it is unused and can be considered new )

Next, we have a tie!
And they are,

"Nurul and Nazrul HAKIM!"

However, I regret to say that,
unlike Yan Jun's brain,
their brain had rot due to oogling at too many chicks - MAK chicks.

Finally I just want to say this,

"Its okay if you want to pretend to be smart,
just know that we are not dumb."

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Michael Jackson

2009-06-28T01:32:00.005+08:00

Michael Jackson
(August 29, 1958 – June 25, 2009)

As a sign of respect to the King of Pop,

I present you the song that once lifted my soul.

"Ben".

Skatecamp 19/06/09

2009-06-22T00:23:00.006+08:00

WARNING!

WARNING!
WARNING!

The following story is rated NC 16.
It contains strong language, violence and nudity.
It is intended for mature audiences.
View Descretion Advised.

No, this is not some sort of rebellation against the authority
but it looks cool.

Skatecamp was awesome.
Seriously.

Cool people (me),
cool activities,
cool party.

The camp was really a turning point.
This is where you really know that in poly,
students rule.
Everything was done by the seniors,
meaning Fuck The School Rules!

This camp also combined the skateboarders with the in-line skaters,
which turns up the heat for the guys in skateboarding,
if you know what I mean.

First up, we had a game called the "Ninja Game" or something like that.
The basic point of the game was to find a ninja (guy) who has the clues,
around the whole freaking campus,
without getting caught by an assasin (girl ),
or you will be detained for 3 mins or so,
which will lead you to the headquarter.

Then after running around like morons for a long time
and finally getting to the headquarter,
your final mission was to catch your group senior.
Sounds easy?

Yeah right.

"Mine was the hardest.
He was like spiderman.
Jumping on the roof, jumping off the roof.
Climbing on the roof.
But in the end, he slipped an fell off the roof of the three level story,
landing head first
and D.I..........."

to be continued....

..and so we are continuing now

D.I stands for Dumb Idiots,
so it goes like this,
"and Dumb Idiots,
you all believe me?
He got bored running away and gave himself up,
but we still got the last position."

It was fun though,
being chased by those assasins.
Actually, I thought of stopping in the middle of the tracks and opening my arms,
but since I'm gentleman kan,
I gave it a pass.

Then there's this gambling game which instead of money,
we used beans.
The basic rule for this game is either you gamble, buy stocks or go to the blackmarket,
which is a dare.
The worst the dare, the more the beans.
So here comes the best part.

One guy actually ate another guys nose shit off the wall.
It was like freaking sick man.
Didn't get a good view at it though,
but those standing infront was scrambling out of the room to puke.
But this is probably one of the main reason why his group won first.
So, kudos to him and his group for winning just a box of donut
and the same tidbits we also received.

Sometimes,
its good to remember,
a game is just a game.
And in the game,
you should always use your fucking brain for god's sake.

Finally, the last unforgettable activity was the dance night followed by a movie marathon.
The room was set up like a mini club,
with the changing colours but without the bright blinking light.
There was music, dancing and shouting.
The crowd was kinda small but still,
if the babes are still there then the party is still on yo!

Oh, there was this mini dancing competition,
each group select one member (me!),
and I won,
I fucking won the competition man!

Just kidding.

I admit,
I only lost by a tiny amount of cheering volume.
The judging was kinda off,
cause we were to dance differenly.
I was the last to go and with no other choices,
I danced hip-hop.
The winner did tecktonik,
and having the advantage of the right ambience of techno music,
he obviously won but it was like so cool ar.
So now, guess what I'm going to be learning.

(Text the answer to 7899 and stand a chance to win a Doremon Version 3.142!)

So, back to my story,
I didn't watch the movie though.
Didn't slept the other night so I was alone walking like a zombie to the sleeping place.
Movies they were playing was quarantine and sexdrive.
Can't believe I missed out on that one,
now did you?

There are other fun activities which I would just be mentioning,
such as magician, elf and giant,
questions only and waking each other off balance with a pillow on a skate.
Then there was our own cluster group game played in the middle of the first night
called "Dare or dare".
Basically, its like "truth or dare" but without the truth.
Only problem is that there are only 2 ladies so most of the stuff is kinda gay.

In the end, my group won second.
Hip-hip horray!
But what I've learned is that its not the prize that matters,
its the experience.
Because, in this case, the prizes all looks the same, except for that nose-shit eating group la,
which had the donuts.

P.S: Okay la, if you really don't know what I was talking about, I was actually refering to hot babes and if you don't know what is hot babes, you, should, just, die.

DARCH outing (sentosa)

2009-05-06T23:59:00.004+08:00

Wednesday,
07/05/09

Since we don't have school every wednesday,
wednesday's are always our get together fun day.

Sentosa was great.
The weather was a little too sunny,
but all was well.

I've tanned myself, again.
So, now I'm back to the "abang hady black" guy.
Oh well.
Although it does seems like black is the new black.

Interesting.

Anyway,
there was some pics taken:

And yes,
I've made loads of friends now,
but fear not ladies and gentlemen of the past,
for I shalt not forget thee.

Smileys

2009-05-04T00:42:00.003+08:00

Its been quite sometime since I posted.
My excuse is that I'm having too much fun doing models that I've forgotten all about this blog.
Its is strange for me to use the word fun to describe model making
but, I'm actually psycho-ing myself into thinking so,
to lessen the torture I'm about to go through for the next three years.
Tortures I'm facing/about to face:

Sleep deprivation.
Social deprivation.
Entertainment deprivation.
And more.

IF I could just manage my time wisely,
then that wouldn't be a problem.
However, the word IF is so massively enormous its next impossible.

Thus, I'm only going to post again when I've finished building the whole models.

Anyway,
today was pleasant.
Thanks for going out with me.

Pening siol!

2009-04-22T21:27:00.002+08:00

There's alot of things in my head,
but I don't know what I'm thinking right now.

I feel afraid,
but I don't know what I'm scared about.

I am confuse,
but there's nothing to be confused about.

I think I'm going crazy.

*Yawn

2009-04-21T21:37:00.002+08:00

Today was absolutely dull.
We had to do this collage on the pictures we took to "express" ourself.
So, we then drew some scetch to see which is the best,
and some girl's one was chosen.
At first I thought it was utter rubbish.
The thing was too complicated and seems like it will take a long time to complete.
So, I didn't get the whole, group feeling thing.
However, as lazy as I usually am,
I did helped out a tiny bit at first,
abit more at the middle and whole lot more at the last end.
( Mainly because I didn't want to look like one slacking son of a bitch )

In the end,
the whole thing looked suprisingly fantastic,
even the lecturer said so,
or maybe its just to patronise us.

This actually reminds me of that old hag.

She might be old,

she might be ugly

she's got one hell of a voice!

I can't seem to upload her video here,

so here's the link:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY

School "Race"

2009-04-20T22:30:00.006+08:00

While everyone's first day was lesson,
mine's a race,
which I think was supposedly to make us open ours eyes to the great surroundings
and make us know more about building and stuffs.
I dont recall much about it,
so I can't say much.
There's alot of photos taken though,
of me and my group, D-(Donut?)

Soon after I met Naufal,
aka Amir's cousin,
like finally.
There were afew malay and one chinese guy with him so,
they'll probably be a "replacement" of the mats in SP.
However, I will probably be in touch with the mats,
because most of them live so damn far from here.
One even live in Pasir Ris.
Thats like world's apart man.
In case you guys don't know about it,
yes, poly seriously brings people from all walks of life together.
Even random people who you haven't even seen before may come to you
and ask you to watch movie with them,
which is what I'm going to write later on.
So yea,
I went to McDonald with them, joke around, had some laughs
and had some "fresh air".
Then suddenly this korean dude from other architectural class came up
and asked us to watch movie together.
All except one agreed and me but thats because he's treating that guy.
So, in the end, he managed to pull quite afew people with him,
and those few quickly,
no,
rapidly became my friends.
Oh yea, and there's this cute girl from my class also joined in.
What a stroke of luck that is.

After the movie,
that Kim guy ditched us and went to help his sister or something,
and left us with nothing to do.
So, after afew hours of standing on the side railings in the Plaza Sing,
we or should I say they,
finally decide to buy some alcoholic drink and drank at the park opposite Ps
while I took some "fresh air".

Next we went to play pool,
and all the "okay2 la" players are actually really good at it.
Those freaking liars.

At the end,
we went for dinner and exchanged numbers and emails,
so now,
I have her email and number,
but I'm not sure what to do bout it though.
Most probably I'll forgot about it and delete it later on.

Nah, just kidding.
I've already add her in msn and is busy chatting with her right now,
even as I am speaking,
or writing for this case.
However, I do not want our relationship to be anymore then just friend,
or maybe tiny bit more then that,
but that's all as it might get complicated,
and thats a no-no.

Byebye!

I'm not pathetic.

2009-04-15T23:29:00.002+08:00

Day 2.
For the half of the day,
I was miserable at best.
If you had read my previous post,
you should understand why.
I was so pathetically lonely that I walked around aimlessly for almost an hour or two,
when my saviour, heroine or whatever you want to call it appeared.
It was Jing2!
I then "dragged" her out from her group of friends and force her to have lunch with me.
After awhile, we met our other sec schoolmates and so,
I abandoned her.
MUAHAHAHAHAHA!

Just kidding.
She had to rush of to her course.

But the second half of the day was freakin' awesome.
There was this ice-breaker game and now,
everybody know me but not vice versa.
I don't bother.
What for?
They're just a bunch of loser who's got no life but to take architecture.
MUAAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Wait,
that means I'm a loser.

Just kidding.

I can definitely remeber their names like Fook kin,
Rich and this philipino guy called Jevaya or something like that.
I called him vejaya once and he was like so freaking pissed at me for one minute
just because it sounded like vagina.
So yea, thats about it.

Oh yea,
my sister got into business school in Singapore Poly,
and she's getting her new bike on Saturday,
which means she'll be forced to give me a ride everyday,
and be under my command till eternity,
MUAHAHAHAHAHA!

Anyway,
tomorrow's flags day and I'm designated to a place called Kovan,
which I think is probably somewhere in Mongolia.
So, yea.

And in case I don't see you,
good afternoon, good evening, and good night!

School starts, Today!

2009-04-13T23:39:00.002+08:00

Well, guess what?

Nobody fucking cares.
I mean literally.
Everybody was like minding their own business.
It was a two hours mind-your-own-business presentation on the SPICE "training",
which does not require us to do anything.
So, there was some communication between the person next to me,
but other than that, for the whole 2 hours, all we could hear was the temporary lecturer talking.

So this is poly life,
Great.

Everythings changing.

2009-04-07T02:18:00.003+08:00

Alot of things are changing right now,
and its not only due to the fact that I'm going to poly in 6 days time.
Some for the better and some are to be opposed.

First up,
technology.
A few days ago,
Dad bought sold his old super4 bike for an even bigger bike,
called "Fazer" or something like that.
If its name doesn't give that "OMGWTF?" ,
which just stands for "Oh My God What The Fuck?",
impression,
then its speed will.
The fastest Dad rode with me is 170 km/h
but thats not even a breeze compared to the top speed its first owner had rode,
for his record was either 256km/h or 265km/h.
Anyway, I don't think Dad's telling me that just to impress me,
because I have a tingling feeling that he's going to see how fast that new baby of his can go,
when he rides to Thailand this coming weekend.
So, all the best for him and may he have a safe trip.

Moving on,
Mom and Dad bought a new TV and a new FAN!
Both, totally radical.
The TV, 42 inch plasma LG TV, is so huge I can't lift it up by myself!
Seriously, having it in the house give my house a whole new look and class.
Btw, its a flatscreen tv, just like my computer and your (.)(.) .
Just kidding.
And don't get me started on the fan.
Its so freaking awesome it can oscillate up and down, left and right at the same time.
How cool is that?

Then there's this small problem called "growing up". . . .

Everythings changing.

2009-04-07T02:18:00.000+08:00

The happening?

2009-03-28T07:23:00.003+08:00

My first reaction or perhaps my second reaction when I woke up is,

"Something's amiss",
and I was right.
I couldn't find my other pillow anywhere!
So, okay, I thought that Hakim had come home and probably took it.
So I checked.
But he wasn't home, and saw only my little brother there.
However, my pillow wasn't there either.

Here comes the "interesting" part.

Then okay, I thought whatever, maybe my sister took it,
and I was going to the washroom when suddenly,
I saw it,
just lying there,
under the fan,
beside the chair.

I was so shocked I couldn't breathe.
I almost fainted, and was gasping for air.
My legs started shaking violently
and I could feel the adrenaline rushing through my body.

Really?

No.
Just kidding.

My thought when I saw that was
" What the hell?"

Here's a map to show you guys.

Lol, semangat.

Anyway,
this could only mean't two things.
One, it's because of the ghost story we talked about yesterday,
and probably "it" followed me home.
Plus the fact that I didn't say "Bismillah" when entering the house,
and say my prayers when sleeping.

Or.

Two, my pillow grew legs and walk on its own!

So,
I guess if I were to choose the most logical explanation,
I would probably pick the latter option.

Which makes no sense at all.
But who cares?

Everything end's with Yo.

2009-03-28T01:45:00.003+08:00

Yo!
Fo shizzle my nizzle!
So tickle my nipple?

Today, I went out like, finally!
Expectedly, the plans for the outing was abolished,
so we just go with the flow man,
and it turned out to be great!

Lesson learned today?

We don't actually need alot of people and alot of planning to have a great time!

Life's unpredictable,
get used to it!
or don't because that'll make life predictable.

I think.

Facial Treatment

2009-03-23T15:13:00.004+08:00

Looks kind of relaxing doesn't it?
But you know what they say,
"looks can be deceiving."

I might be a little off by saying that,
because the first part was kinda a little relaxing
but when she start squeezing the pimples,
hell started.
That part was so excruciating I nearly shit in my pants.

Just kidding, that doesn't makes any sense at all.

However, I swear to god, its holy fucking shit painful.
It felt as if someone was taking a knife and stabbing your face with it.
Then there was the lazer treatment. ( Wooo )

Another thing that seems kind of sophisticated and had a wow factor.
Its wow alright.
The whole thing felt as if small ants was biting my face.

Lastly was the face mask,
which was a relieve because its cooling and relaxing.

So, all in all,
$75 was spent in exchange for a more radiant face.

Great.

Next appointment,
Last week of April.

No pain, no gain.

Facial Treatment

2009-03-23T15:13:00.000+08:00

Maybe its fate.

2009-03-12T22:14:00.004+08:00

Today, someone returned my wallet.
Yes, go singaporeans!
However, I have strange feeling that someone who found it must had read my previous post.
That person did the same exact thing as what I pled him/her to do.
Take all my money, leaving everything else untouch.
And when I say "all" the person really took all.
There's not even a single cent inside.
I don't mind.

Thank you god and whoever that kind hearted person may be.

I think its fate

2009-03-12T22:14:00.001+08:00

Byebye wallet

2009-03-10T01:58:00.003+08:00

Today,
I lost my wallet.

In other words,
I'm Fucked.

Anyway,
My wallet contains over $100.

If anyone want to gain easy money,
you can start finding it.

There's only one thing I want to request,
please return my IC and the rest of the stuffs.

My pathetic story of hady

2009-03-08T00:09:00.003+08:00

Today,
I went to U.A.S first gig.
Honestly, I think they're the best out of the whole group of bands,
due to good vocal,
tuning,
and originality.

There was one other young band who was partially compatible to them,
but what they were lacking is originality in writing their own song.
However, I have a feeling they'll go far in their music career.

Moving on.

Today,
I met my long lost friend.
Shafiqah was her name.
If I'm not wrong, she's probably my childhood sweetheart of some sort.
So of course, even amidst the chaos,
a slight glimpse of her jolted past memories back into my mind.
After afew moments reminiscing about the past,
and talking about our present,
we went our seperate ways.

Maybe it was just a coincidence or maybe its fate,
but,
I met her again.
It was at Aladdin.
So, with afew persuation from Hafriz,
okay, actually alot,
I took up the courage to ask for her contact number.
Ironically,
as I was about to ask her for her contact number,she asked for mine.
How embarrassing.
So, in the end, I got her number in exchange for mine.
Hope this time, our friendship will last longer.

Today,
I met her twice.
Each time I saw her,
my heart flutters and a strange warm sensation covers my body from head to toe.
However,
I managed to cover any evidence that might show how I really felt.
Why?
Because I am pathetic.

And this is my life.

P.s: It's not the same story.

Hey, you want to see my LAP! (top)

2009-03-03T02:46:00.004+08:00

Yesterday,
Mom asked me a stupid question,
and so, to a stupid question like that,
I answered,
"What a stupid question".

Considering the fact that its only been bought afew weeks ago,
which can also be counted in days if I'm bored enough,
who wouldn't want to use it.

That question is,
"Do you want to use your dad's laptop or purchase your own using your own money?"

Speaking of laptop,
I wonder why they called it laptop.
Maybe the inventor was watching you-know-what and thought to himself,
"Wouldn't it be better if I could put it on my lap and watch it?"

Just kidding.

Its actually because people are able to put it on their lap,
thus calling it, "Laptop".
I know,
I've checked,
on wikipedia.

So, in sequence,
a mini version of it,
would be logically nicknamed as the "Palmtop".

However,
why don't people call the computer a desktop then?
That's right,
because its in the computer itself.
So, calling it desktop would be stupid.

What a load of bullshit.

The moral of the story today?
"When a person writes nonsense on his blog, it actually means he's bored"

Even is better than odd.

2009-02-26T23:34:00.002+08:00

Today was just a plain day,
even though I went out with two friends.
I don't know.
When I'm with them, I felt as if I'm an Alien or the opposite.
I'm clueless about most of what they're talking about,
while they've probably ignored 99% of what I was saying.
I don't get much of their jokes, neither do they get mine.
I tried to communicate and maybe get a chance to understand or something like that,
but after awhile, I find it stupid and stop trying.
I've kinda felt ignored for a moment.
I don't know.
Maybe it's just the odd number of people.
So, from now onwards,
I'm against going out in odd number,
except 1, which is myself.

Anyway,
I've just realised what I want.
What I want is just a girl with a sweet voice to sing for me.

Also,
I want to watch horror movie,
anyone interested on a one night date?
Guys and girl accepted.

Laugh, Out, Loud.

Chain mail

2009-02-23T15:48:00.002+08:00

All these chain mails are fucking nonsense.
I mean seriously.
They made statements which aren't logical.
For example, if u send this to $%& people,
you will get anything you wish for.
Who do they think they are, God?
In their dream, assholes.

Okay,
I received this mail yesterday,
read,
and ignore.
Usually I'll ignore it from the moment I receive it,
but oh well.

Here's what it says,
"Once you have opened this e-mail, there's no turning back. Below are true descriptions of zodiac signs. Read your sign, then forward it on, with your zodiac sign and label on the subject line. This is the real deal, try ignoring or changing it, and the first thing you'll notice is having a horrible day starting tomorrow morning - and it only gets worse from there.."

Right.
Bullshit.
Then there's this,

VIRGO - The Perfectionist
Dominant in relationships.. Conservative. Always wants the last word. Argumentative. Worries. Very smart. Dislikes noise and chaos. Eager. Hardworking. Loyal. Beautiful. Easy to talk to. Hard to please. Ha rsh. Practical and very fussy. Often shy. Pessimistic.
7 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

Okay, what?
Some of them are totally true,
like very smart, eager, hardworking and loyal
but others are the total opposite.
So, what the fuck man?

It even wrote "7 years of bad luck".
"7 years of bad luck?"
How many fucking times have people used that quote?
Where's their sense of originality in that?

So, basically,
what I'll do is,
to reply the fag who started this all.
Maybe saying,

" Hi, I was a poor guy living alone in a cave.
Then, last week, I send this to a billion people and married my dream girl,
won $10 billion dollars out of a lucky draw plus, a huge mansion."

What a truck load of shit.

Birthday's are underated.

2009-02-23T02:03:00.009+08:00

So, from the looks of things its very clear where we went to right?
Pizza hut.
There was some technical problems with their ordering machine or something,
so we had to we received our main dish first,
then nothing.

Truely,
we waited afew more minutes,
but still,
nothing.

So, instead of being fucking stupid,
like some people,
(just kidding)
we asked for our the rest of our orders.
So this other dim-witted person was like,
duh~
and then she checked the ordering machine of some sort,
but there was no order.
How can the machine be malfuntion in a newly renovated mall?
Thus we had to re-order our side dishes.

However,
despite that inconvenience,
the cook misread the order and cooked the same thing twice.
Thus, we had one more for free.

Here are some of the pictures:

Moving on.

So, since the last minute plan to shisha tak jadi,
I made a on the spot spontanious decision to go with my siblings and solihin.
They said yes,
even though sister had to work in between the occasion,
while hakim and solihin was out with their friend.

We even told my parents,
and this time,
its before going there.

Meanwhile,
I did a little shopping with my little brother.
Which, was another story to begin with.
See, we were heading to cineleasure,
when we saw this caucasion dude undressing this lady.
There was a small crowd though.
He was groping that poor lady, or should I say rich lady?
He's fucking drunk, or was it the other way around?
Who, cares?
She's not that hot,
but who wouldn't want to watch some babe getting undressed?
She was already strip half naked,
and by that I mean, bottom half.
See the panties, one can.
Funny thing is, I couldn't see her skirt anywhere.
However, the hilarious part was that I didn't stick around to watch the full episode.
Maybe it'll come out on the newspaper tomorrow,
"DRUNKEN GUY STRIPPING DRUNKEN GIRL"
or something like that.
Damn,
my only regret is not taking their picture.

The next part was total irony.
Lucky plaza.
When we had just fetch sister from work,
and headed to the toilet.
To pee of course and not to dwell on the previous part, if you know what I mean.
Suddenly, we saw these 2 ladies in the gents.
Wanna guess?
Here's a hint.
They looked like shit.
They sounded like shit.
And they disgrace us men, fucking shit.
Hell, they even asked to be photographed.
Look how incredibly stunned I was.
What a truck load full of shit.

The moral of this story one might ask?
What goes UP, must come DOWN.
Go figures.

After that,
we finally shisha-ed.

All I can say is that,
it was another fun experience.
It was so fun my head caught fire.
Just kidding.

All in all,
I accounted for half of the pizza's cost,
one num shirt,
one boss perfume,
( which I got for only $43,
after my sister's staff discount plus tester's pakaging.
But I swear its still the real deal.
U.P : 63 - 68, can't remember )
and one paris hilton can can perfume,
for my sister that is.

So,
again,
all's well that ends well.

p.s: I didn't edit the pictures to show how bad my fucking face is.
Im going for a facial and I hope they wouldn't vomit diarrhoea shit on my face.

FUCK.

2009-02-19T00:58:00.003+08:00

FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK.

I SWEAR TO MY FUCKING GOD THAT NOT EVEN 1% CLOSE TO THE AMOUNT OF FUSTRATION BOILING UP INSIDE THIS FUCKING HEAD OF MINE.

FIRSTLY, I ASKED FOR A MORNING FUCKING SHIFT FROM LIKE 1 FUCKING WEEK AGO ONLY FOR THURSDAY NIGHT BECAUSE I'M HAVING RELIGIOUS CLASS, BUT WHAT DID THEY FUCKING DID WITH THAT REQUEST?
THEY TAKE THAT FUCKING STATEMENT AND PUSH IT UP THEIR ASS.
SO, THEN TODAY, WHEN I ASKED THAT SAME FUCKING QUESTION,
THEY TEXTED ME, " TOMORROW, YOU TAKE A DAY OFF. ".

WHAT? A DAY OFF? WHAT? WHAT ABOUT MY SATURDAY OFF?
FUCKING RETARDS.
SO WHAT AM I GOING TO DO DURING THE DAY ASSHOLES.
I CAN'T ENJOY MYSELF SINCE I HAVE SOMETHING ON AT NIGHT.
SO WHAT AM I GOING TO DO DURING THE FUCKING DAY?
FUCK THEM.
I WANNA FUCKING QUIT THIS JOB.
BUT I'M FUCKING CLUELESS WHETHER I'M LUCKY ENOUGH TO GET ANOTHER JOB.
I SWEAR, IF THIS WHOLE FUCKING THING DON'T WORK OUT,
I'M SIGNING A FUCKING RESIGNATION LETTER.

WHAT IS WORST IS THAT WHEN I GOT HOME,
MY MOTHER FUCKING NAGGED ABOUT SAVING MONEY.
WHATS THAT ALL ABOUT MAN?
WHY DO I WORK SO FUCKING HARD IF I CAN'T SPEND IT?
THATS FUCKING STUPID.
SO FUCK THAT TOO.

WHAT ASSHOLES.

MY LIFE IS FUCKED.

Curly or straight?

2009-02-16T01:22:00.003+08:00

Okay, firstly, today has nothing to do with my fucking hair.
I'm just putting that because I felt like it.

I don't know why, but I keep waking up every 2 hours ytd night.
Maybe it's because I'm trying to have a lucid dream.
Achieving it would be like fucking great,
and the first thing I'm going to do is to kill or rape or torture someone.
But fuck, not only was I not having that luck, I wasn't even dreaming.
It actually felt like a blink, only to have realised it was 2 hours later.
Seems like an incredible good thing doesn't it?
Blink, blink and more blink, and what do you know?
Its already morning!
No, it suck. Big fucking time.

So, anyway, I went to the gym with Matin,
whose weight is now the same as mine.
59 kg.
Fuck him.
Okay, maybe not, that'll be gay.
However I'm not all surprise since he went to the almost every fucking day.
But one good thing about him is that he doesn't show off, nor does he have a six pack.
Okay, maybe just the latter.
Just kidding.

Speaking of gay,
one of my colleague asked me,
" Are you gay ? "
She even asked me to prove it by showing my dick.
And I was like, " WHAT? "
( thinking : You want me to fuck you right here right now ? )
I would if I could.
She's kinda hot for her age which is in her early 30's.
Oh, she's also a mother of 3,
which probably means she's done it before probably a million times.
And her ^@$#% must be as loose as a hip-hoppers pants.
Plus, she's a philipines, which also increase the chances of her having AIDS.

So, after reading that people might wonder what cause the awkward situation right?
It was actually just because I was trying to fucking smile sincerely.

What a turn of event that was.
So, maybe next time I'll just do what some guys do.
Look at the breast, lick my lips and whistle to get the attention.
That'll show how much of a guy I am, I think?
Just kidding.
That's just fucking sick.

( I know there are some who reads my blog so before rumours start going around I just want to say that what I'm writing is what had actually happened. So, please, if you do not believe it then, thats fine with me. )

Here's the latest videos I'm watching these days.
There's like over 800+ freaking videos on " How to ..."
It ranges from a simple video "How to take a shower",
to a more complex one such as "How to build self confidence in others".
It even have a video on "How to ask a woman for sex".
Just kidding.

( The ending is like "In your face bitch. Guys are much nicer people" )

Youtube.

2009-02-14T02:24:00.002+08:00

Youtube.
I wonder how long this fucking website will go on?
But who cares?
Well, some fucking guys in China, Iran or Morocco probably won't.
Why?
Because their country blocked access to it.
How fucking stupid is that?
No wonder alot of China citizen move here to Singapore.

Just kidding.
However, it would be pretty hilarious, moving to Singapore just to watch the fucking Youtube.
Anyway, here's a fucking funny video.

Abit like life.

2009-02-08T00:50:00.016+08:00

Today,
was abit like life.
It had its up and down.

So, first up.
The Singapore National Museum, finally.
Incoherent to what Denise Yap said,
the museum was only afew metres away from Dhoby Ghaut MRT station.
However, what was true was how elegant and modern the place is.
It feels so calming and peaceful.
There was alot of stuff that I don't understand,
but I looked at it anyway,
trying to feel what the artist felt.

I think I managed to squeeze some feelings out.
I was a literature student anyway.

( I've always hated Literature )

Lastly, there's this contest I'm interested in participating,
but fuck,
the brochure is with Nazrul.
Its okay though, there's going to be a second time.
History Exhibition is yet to be seen.

Oh, like I said, this trip had its downside,
this was it.
I suddenly got a call from Guy A,
"Eh, masih on tak? Budak A nak kene kluar dgn bapak. Budak B and C nak kene kluar dgn parents."
Translation:
"Eh, still on or not? Boy A had to go out with his father. Boy B and C had to go out with his family"
Last Translation:
Fuck you guys.

I am not trying sounding like an asshole here.
Its just that on the day of the plan and on the day itself,
everybody, and I really mean everybody was like,
"Okay. Can. Sure."
Suddenly, on the last hour,
"Sorry, mummy can't let me go out."
"Mummy said I have to go to grandma's"
Mummy this, mummy that.
Don't you guys have any other excuses?
Maybe, I fell down and knock my brains out?
That'll be so much more convincing.

At least have the initiative to tell me before hand, dickfuck.
So, I can like ask Nadia out or something like that.
( No nadia, I haven't receive my pay yet, so please wait awhile :) )

Somehow or another,
this was expected of you guys.
( Most of you that is. )
This was why I went out by myself on the last trip.

Then, when all hope seems lost,
miracles started to happen.
Oh thank god, and Nazrul probably.
Because some people didn't have the courtesy to tell before hand,
Nazrul was on the way to Boon Lay MRT station when he got the "cancelled message".
So, what the fuck, right?
Since God showed me something,
I should probably used it to the fullest potential.
( My apologies if I'm making his seemed like a tool of somesort )

So, shisha was still on.

It seemed abit gay though.
Just two guys.
But again, what the fuck.

Shisha was weird.
It was not what I had expected it to be.
There was some taste.
There was smoke, obviously.
And there was some laughters.
However, I didn't feel anything.
None of the "high feeling" when people smoke.
It was fun though,
the environment, the excitement
and lastly, the experience.

Dinner was on me.

So, I guess,
all's well that ends well.

Here's a video to make you laugh.
I think.

Cat steven

2009-02-05T09:05:00.003+08:00

Cat steven, now known as, Yusuf Islam.

Listen.

I almost cried listening to this song.

Almost.

Jason Mraz

2009-02-04T14:51:00.004+08:00

5 March 2009.

Singapore Indoor Stadium.

Anyone interested?

Here's a video that I liked.

Especially towards the end.

Shit.

2009-02-01T04:23:00.003+08:00

Its around 4.30 now, and I can't even get a wink of sleep.

Do you know why I can't sleep?

Because I'm having diarrhoea.

Do you know why I am having diarrhoea?

Because life's full of shit.

Thank you.

*smiling*

Memory

2009-01-31T15:08:00.004+08:00

The results are out.
Everyone's going their seperate ways.
Some will still stick together,
some will make new friends and move on,
and others will be lost.

So, all thats left will be a memory.

Farewell,
my friends.

Fit or, Fat?

2009-01-30T01:58:00.002+08:00

There is a saying by some old Egyptian sage Ptahhotep, who wrote in 2400 B.C,
saying " All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy".
Well, that isn't all that correct.
What I mean is that he forgot to mention the word "Fat".
All work and no play makes Jack a dull and fat boy.

The reason why I said this is should be obvious, shouldn't it?

So, if I were to follow most people, I would be on a diet but,
I am not "most people".

Going on a diet is stupid.

First of all, I'll miss out on all the good food.
Secondly, I'll torture ourself by resisting it.
Thirdly, I can't think of any, but I'm sure there's one.

So, that leaves me to the other solution, Liposuction.
Its going to take me one and a half months salary,
but it's really worth it!

Just kidding.

Liposuction would be another stupid idea.
So, what's left?
Jogging, La.

A change.

2009-01-29T16:17:00.002+08:00

Today,
when searching upon the show Phantom of the Opera.
*Laughing*
I chanced upon the show Pay it forward.
Its pretty cool and probably touching to others.
But the whole idea of doing good to others kinda struck me.
Makes me want to change for the better.

Just kidding.

Man or manmal?

2009-01-28T02:56:00.004+08:00

Today, I finally received that Ang - Pow from boss.

* Laughing *

It had like, around $100 dollars inside.

Just kidding.

It actually had $10, but I swear I'm fucking grateful to him.
Seriously. which boss would ever give out Ang Pow's to all his workers?

Anyway, a few moment ago, Puteri asked me to sign in this
"http://www.thepetitionsite.com/petition/183194260".
It's something about kittens used as sharkbait.
I'm sure some of the others may find this pretty sick.
As in cool, sick.
Why not?
We've been always using fishes as baits, so why not use their predator instead?
This is why most people don't succeed in life.
They're not that open to new ideas.
But I'm not like them.
I'm smart.
Instead, I'm going to learn from them, and maybe even improve on the current situation.
For example, using a new born kitten ( so that there's no hard feelings ),
or maybe an old alley cat ( they're going to die soon anyway ),
or lastly, those handicap cats whose probably going to die soon also due to their lack of survival equipments.

Just kidding.

Like some genius said "Animals are people too" or is it the other way around?

I think its the latter.

Life's unpredictable.

2009-01-27T01:30:00.002+08:00

I dont know why,

but I'm starting to like work.

It's a shame I forgot to bring the oranges,

I would have gotten the ang pao's today.

Nevermind,

there's always tomorrow.

Pursuit of Happiness,

2009-01-25T02:36:00.013+08:00

I can't say that today was fun because,

saying that would be such an understatement.

It was like a roller-coster ride,
and yet also a smooth sailing.

It felt great.
I felt so free,
no waiting, no hurrying.
I could take my time.
Do whatever I please.
And when I feel like going to a certain place,
I just do it, without thinking twice.

But the best part was,
everything I did today,
was so random.

First up,
Clark Quey.
This first stop was supposed to be where
I'm supposed to find my first true purpose of this journey,
which is to find the Nation Museum of Singapore.
But instead, I made my way to the parliment where,
unexpectedly,
I caught sight of a boat tour shop.
So, guess what?

( Special thanks to the caucasian )

What better way to learn about one own's country than to not act like one.

Next stop,
Vivo City.
Unexpectedly, which should be the word of the day,
I was pulled by some lady who was selling something,
for some charity to some less privilidge children,
which looks like this:

( It does matches my name "D" )

So, what the heck right?
I'm not quite sure, but I think taking a break means to just go for it.
Kinda reminds me of the show "Yes Man".
Anyway, here's the "touching part".
After I've bought it, I clearly heard her saying,
"I blessed you from the bottom of my heart".

Apart from that, I bought dinner at B.G
and two t-shirt totalling up to $130.

Oh,
I also went to this icy-cold chamber at National Geography,
just for fun.
It was -26 degress in there or something like that,
and I was there for 5 mins.
It wasn't that cold, I think.

Next,
Borders.
I don't know why the fuck did I came here,
neither do I have a clue on what I'm looking for.
So I asked the cashier with an angelic smile,
which I'm sure worked pretty well,
" Can you recommend me some books for teenagers?"
But she gave me that stunned look.
I laughed.
She laughed.
In the end, I managed to find some books about crime.
Its called "Cross country".

The end?

No way.

Next,
also another word of the day,
Shaw.
It was around 9 .30 by now,
but the night is still young.
So, without a fucking clue of what to watch,
I just went to the cinema screen,
pick up a show that's going to start soon.
Unexpectedly,
it was inkheart.
Great.
but the show was greater.
It's even better than that "Bedtime story",
which is probably the right tittle,
since its going to put people to sleep just by watching it.

Just kidding.

But the part about it being better was true.

Journey home.
Like I mentioned above,
it was a smooth sailing.
I caught the last of everything.
Although I was almost stuck at city hall.
Almost.
See, upon reaching the terminal,
the MRT driver muttered in his indian accent,
"People going to boon lay please allight at Raffles place"
or something like that.
I don't blame him for his accent,
just the part where he only spoke about it once.
So, there I was stucked in the middle,
not knowing if I should listen to what seem like an imaginary voice,
or,
out.
So, guess what?
Out it was.
But I did hesitate.
Somehow,
my instinct told me to dash up the stairs to the second platfrom.
And fuck was I in luck.
As soon as I dash in the MRT to Boon Lay,
the door closed.
I swear to God my heart was pounding so fast,
I could have suffered from heart attack.
But the fun didn't stop there.
I saw this hot babe at the corner of my eyes
and the guys sitting next to her was freaking drench with their own sweat.

Just kidding.

She is hot though,
but whats even hotter is her dragon tattoo on her back.

Lastly,

No.
I didn't ride one of these.
But it'll be on my mind till my next adventure.
And hopefully,
I'll be able to visit the Singapore National Museum then.

All in all,
I've spent almost around $200.
But I have to say one thing,
I,
Don't,
Care.

Life is wonderful,
with a little bit of help from God.

P.S: When one opens his eyes to happiness,
he shall see what he was looking for.

Read the last sentence.

2009-01-24T01:46:00.002+08:00

Today,
I was requested to have a day off.
So far, I've asked one person to go out with me.
Well, that didn't went well.
( not in a bad situation kind of way )

If nobody's willing then I'll probably go out by myself.
Explore some unknown places.
Maybe even go to that Singapore Museum,
which planning with Denise to go there would be like,
waiting for some miracle to happen.

*Laughing*

Tomorrow shall be interesting,

I hope.

P.S: If anyone is reading this and feels like going out, please contact me.

Past, present and future.

2009-01-23T01:22:00.005+08:00

Today,
I picked up baby sister from school later than usual.
Way later.
Why?
Because she was having malay dance.
Feels kinda strange to see her growing up so fast,
and before I know it,
she might be trying to put on make-up and all those stuffs.

Okay,
so as I promised myself the day before,
I am going to treat her.
( its actually at KFC )
Somehow, it gave me a satisfied feeling.
Plus,
Mum's home when I we went back.
Gave her $20 bucks to buy what she wants.
Again, I felt satisfied.

Work sucks, almost everyday.
I know, I've tried.
Or should I say, I'm still trying.
But not today.
Today, I met a girl, a customer.
She has the face of an angel and the sweetest smile I've ever seen.
Stunned as I was, I tried to keep my cool.
I managed. I think.
I did looked at her for awhile, almost as if I was staring.
And I also stammered while asking for the change.
( It was more of a two-twent please. )
Plus, my body suddenly became warmer.
Now, whoever said that I'd no feelings,
boy were they wrong.

Anyway,
it kinda irritate me for awhile when folks are always saying,
" Plan for your future " and stuffs.
So I watched this cool movie today, online.
Brilliant.
Its called,

Its got 10 easy tips to learn.
But, since I have a job now,
I'll keep this option open for the future.

ps: I am happy today, very happy.

I am happy, I think.

2009-01-22T01:08:00.005+08:00

All those hours had finally paid off.
I mean literally.
Today,
I received my first pay cheque.
It felt awesome.
One of the best feeling I had since birth.
Its exciting to have the thought of showing it off to the people at home,
but for what reason,
I do not know.

But again,
everone's asleep.
The hall living room is empty.
It's so quiet, strange.
I used to like this kind of atmosphere during school times.
Nobody to bother me when I'm using the computer.
Now, it feels kinda lonely.
So I guess it'll have to wait for tomorrow,
and probably the end of the week to show it to Mum and Dad.

I think that this other genuis who made up the phrase,
"Reach for the star"
is actually being sarcastic.
Because, nobody possibly reach the stars,
not even the astronaut.
So, what makes the person think he can?
In actual fact, its probably to say that,
" You're hopeless"

Anyway,
now that I've loads of money to spend,
I'm going somewhere,
anywhere,
because,

"Life's a mystery"

P.s: Sabreena better love me loads cause she's the first to be treated, probably McDonald.

I love mum.

2009-01-21T01:47:00.002+08:00

Even though she's still alive, well and kicking.
Even though we live in the same roof.
Even though I see her almost everyday,
I can't help but to miss Mum.
I cried thinking of her at work.

Just kidding.

But I do miss her alot.

Lately, I've been coming home around 1am,
and have a hunch that I'll be coming home around this kind of hour for the next weeks.
Home, to me now, is kind of an understatement.
Would you still call it home if you come home everyday,
and find that you're house is empty?
Where everybody's asleep and all you can here is the sound of snores?
And that you slept so late at night,
that when you woke up the next day,
everybody had left for work or school,
and you can't help but to feel lonely all the time?

I always of question myself,
what the hell am I doing?
And the questions will always be the same,

Fuck do I know?

As some genius made this up,

" Life's a mystery "

p.s: Although there is one other person who is still awake somedays.

Borderland.

2009-01-20T09:41:00.002+08:00

Today, I watched this movie.
Its a comedy.
Its hilarious.
Totally took me off-guard man.

Just kidding.

This movie is sick fuck.
Moreover, its based on true story.
It scared the shit out of me.
Now that I've realised it,
Texas Chainsaw Massacre,
another horror movie based on true story,
also took place in Mexico.
Coincidence?
I think,

so too.

The poor and the rich

2009-01-19T01:52:00.005+08:00

If there is one thing that I've learnt from my work is that "bangla's" are modest people.
Well, most of them, that is.
Most are always argueing over who is going to pay the bill,
and its not the "You pay lah".
Incredibly, its the opposite.

Even though I dont agree with their "holding hands" trend,
making friends with "bangla" is kinda,
kinda tempting.

Just kidding.

Working life is very miserable.
Especially working in a supermarket who's main customers are banglas.
I dont hate the people there.
It is my first ever real job anyway.
Boss and others are nice people.
Plus, my aunt and cousin are working there as well.
Its just that,
I don't feel like I have gained any experience thats worthwhile?
or maybe its just because I beginning to feel lifeless.
Well see how it ends.
Its just for the money anyway.

It was showing on the television awhile ago.
Someday,
I hope.

Phew!

2009-01-18T01:29:00.002+08:00

This part of my life is called, relief.

9am.
A time I would not have awaken only if its an emergency,
and so, for this case, it truely is.

MOE headquarter looks kinda ordinary.
Nothing special. Nothing grand.
And last but not least, nothing they can't help me with.

So, I finally send my application form.

My experience of this whole incident consists of
1 day late.
1 night of nightmare.
1 hour of depression.
1 min of silence.
1 sec of blank.

So, I think I finally realised why Singaporean's are so "kiasu".
And to me, "kiasu" is not such a bad idea afterall.

Stupid

2009-01-17T01:00:00.000+08:00

This part of my life is called, stupid.

My heart is beating harder than ever before.
How can this be?
Fuck.
Why did I not look at it before?
I feel like puking.

Why am I feeling this kinds of emotions today or should I say tonight?
It was because I MISSED THE FUCKING DATELINE to apply for the JAE online.

No,no,no,no,no, this can't be happening!

A time to think about what I want.

2009-01-13T00:51:00.003+08:00

O level Result.

12/01/09

4 years.
Seems like a long time.
But 4 years,
isn't a long time.

I told myself before the results were released to open up to different kinds of ideas.
If its meant to be that I would have to go to ITE, then so it shall be.
A 16 for my L1 R4.
Not so bad isn't it?
However, it somehow feels as though my heart has been crushed.
But the worst part is,
that feeling had vanished.
And so,
HOW AM I GOING TO LEARN FROM THIS FUCKING MISTAKE?

I am not mad at anything or anybody else.
I am mainly angry at myself.
I am going to change.
But I'll probably need help.
So, who should I turn to?
And what sort of help should I get?

For now,
one word is running through my mind.
Architecture.

BBQ 09/01/09

2009-01-11T00:23:00.003+08:00

09/10/2009

4G BBQ.

It was filled with much laughter.

It was filled with alot of food.

It was filled with wonderful people.

But somehow,

It felt empty.

I think im seeing something here.
All the "we are the best class", "they're not supportive", "he's a freak" and whatever else some of us thought of during sec 4's,
b.u.l.l.s.h.i.t.
"we are the best class" ?
Oh come on, don't tell me that I've only had a class of 12 for the pass 2 years.
"they're not supportive"
Like you are?
"he's a freak"
At least he bothered to come.
So, do you all see what I see?

Forget it man.

I walked along the shore that night, alone.
I found it kinda relaxing.
Nothing to think about.
Just keep on walking to who knows where.

Oh, BBQ, right.

Foods. Laughters. Craps.
And that should be about it.

Belverin.

How should I say this?
She is attractive.
She is unique.
I don't feel a sense of fondness towards her,
even though I pretended to.
I can say weird and direct things in front of her,
knowing that she'll giggle along.
Like I said,
she's one of a kind.

(Note: I've insulted Miss Nithiya for 4 times, and am receiving the result last)

We'll see if she really meant it)

Stirred up?

2008-12-31T00:40:00.003+08:00

I feel as though I am being such a moron.

I don't see the treasure that is right in front of me.

But I think I'm starting to see the whole picture now.

And it feels good.

2008-12-28T21:00:00.000+08:00

I think there's a hole in my heart.

Anyone cares to donate theirs?

On my mind.

2008-12-13T19:52:00.005+08:00

Day 7.
I gave up trying ,
she gave up crying.
I guess I dont have a heart afterall.
However, I wish to have one.
And there's one right here.
All I have to do is,
to grab it,
and pull it out...

Theres something on my mind right now,
and I think I should write.

Wouldn't it be fucking hilarious if a guy says to a girl,
Guy: Baby, you know Ill sacrifice my life for you.
Girl: Really? Thats great. How bout tomorrow?
Guy: What?
Girl: Yeah, I have a weak heart and I need an operation.

Was it funny, punk?
No?
Okay, maybe its just that I have a low sense of humor.

okay,
Next up.
My sec 3 picture.

Look how cute I was back then.
Awesome.
One can see how much I've slim down.

Pictures.

2008-12-10T20:28:00.013+08:00

I am not going to write the intro because its the same day im posting as the previous post.

now,
I've just gotten new pictures of prague from Adzdzin.
Okay, so,
without a do,
I present you,
pictures!
again.

Oh,
I'll be commenting on each pictures
to reveal what I think of it.

punishment at the end of the trip. how memorable.
the tree that lights up the black market.

im sure he's full of air.

Astronomical Clock or should I say, Orloj.

Adzdzin look so sexy.

I think I was too pretty she couldn't take her eyes off me.

Im sorry to shine too much.

Erm, jing Bell(e)?

How nice of them to put my statue there.

Little baby was crying.

I TOOK THIS PICTURE. Isn't it nice?

Adzdzin looked bored.

No comments.

Shafiq spoiled the picture, not me.

I found a teenage hip-hop there. He's kinda hot.

Mine's longer.

Whos the idiot whos scared of this statue?

I took this picture too!

She's very cute.

Bullied.

She's very hot.

She's very cute too.

Should have taken picture with him when we got caught. It'll be classic.

The one and only caucasion i took picture with!

I took this picture too!

Now this is what I call Art.

Now, where's the big bad wolf to blow the whole thing away?

I like his jacket.

Onwards Prague.

He's name is Shi Jie.

Look at his jacket.

Only the coolest.

My roommate.

Another cute one.

See! I told you she's cute.

Cheese?

Group 7.

Pontian-ak

2008-12-10T19:55:00.006+08:00

Day 6.
Im not all that mean.
I do have a heart.
Its just that its not beating right.
I want to calm her down.
I want...
I...

Okay.
I take it back.
I think im going to continue.
And maybe finish this nonsensical story someday.
Maybe give it some happy ending.
Okay, no.
Happy ending sounds so gay.
Moving on.

Pontian.
This part of my life.
I am going to write it as short as possible.
So, here goes.

Reached.

Eat.

Cut trees.

Cut woods.

Burn woods.

Bath.

Eat.

Card games.

Sleep.

And the cycle repeats itself.

Wow.
Thats short.
Now for some pictures.

THE END.

Euro trip

2008-12-03T19:32:00.022+08:00

Day 5.

She sat in the corner.
Squatting down,
she was crying,
and crying,
and crying...

I am out of idea of what to write for the "intro".
I think im going to stop from next post onwards,
or not.
I dont know.

Now.
For the real story.
For this one,
I call it,

"My journey in Prague"

Through my journey to this strange yet wonderous country,
I have learn alot about music as well as bout behaviour.
There's alot you can understand about someone,
her characters, habit and personality.
All you have to do is to look,
and you shall see.

Unfortunately,
I lost my camera during the trip.
So, all photos are in courtesy of
Irene Siah, Wan Ting, Shazwan
and more.

Air-O-Plain.

As a first timer,
I didn't quite know what to expect.
A little anxious, of course, but more of being excited rather.
When the plane took off, I felt butterflies in my stomach.
It was an absolutely wonderful feeling.
Abit like rollercoaster rides when the ride is going downhill.
However, the rest of the journey was quite a bore,
so, i won't write on that.
Also, there was no scenery to be capture,
because it was night throughout the journey,
so, no pictures for the 12 hour flight.
Okay, maybe one.

Istanbul.
There was practically nothing much to buy.
Everybody wasnt into buying the things there,
except for afew quick snacks at burgerking
and starbucks.
With nothing else to do,
most of us sat at burgerking during the flight interval.

Plane again.
This time, i sat with Irene Ho.
A cute girl she is, but too skinny.
Luckily, the sun rose, breaking the darkness of the night,
and a dazzling scenery emerge.
Here's some.

And so,
at last,
we reached.

We went straight to hotel.
Nothing much.
So, onwards.

Day 1 ( in Praha )

Movenpick Hotel.
A name I'll always remember.
A place where even its coffee can give you confidence,
right Shafiq?
Speaking of Shafiq, he is non other than my roommate.
A small yet sometimes intelligent person he is.
Personality?
Somehow, he is kinda like me.
Brothers we used to call each other.
However, even brothers disagree sometimes.
But most of the time, we laugh and joke around.

The logistic guys, including me,
was then off to the supermarket to get some fresh water.
Wierd but the elders said that the water there was not as clean.
Each person was entitled to 6 bottles of 1L bottles.
Sounds kinda easy?
No.
Its heavy, even for a muscular person like me.

Soon after,
Dinner.
The eating part of my journey was mostly fun.
Even though we didnt sat at our own cliques,
each individual group had much laughter.
Especially my group consisting of
Adzdzin, Wan Ting, Jian Yang, Zhi Hui, Shafiq and yours truely.

Short rehersal next.
Mr goh knew were tired.
So, it sounded good even though its bad.
I know it doesnt make sense,
but most things in life doesnt.

Day 2.

Breakfast.
Okay, the first breakfast in prague.
One of life's funniest moment.
It all started with Shafiq staring at the menu while singing,
oblivious to his surrounding, which was filled with whisperings of,
"Is it free? or in singaporean accent, "Free ar?"
Then a waiter shows up.
With much confidence, Shafiq said, "I would like to order Movenpick Coffee"
As soon as he said that, we all stared at him.
I then said, "Eh, need to pay you know"
He panicked and quickly rush to cancel his order.
And that is how the "I would like to order Movenpick Coffee" joke came about.

Rehearsal.

Lunch.

Rehearsal.

Dinner.

Day 3.

Breakfast.

Rehearsal.

Lunch.

Following that,
Road trip.
To someplace where jews suffered under the Nazi.

There, we were supposed to get some sort of feeling.
Pity maybe?
I dont know.
I just didnt feel anything.
Whats there to feel about?
Jews being tortured?
So what.
Maybe its just me.
But I do have feelings, dont I?

After that,
Dinner.
As always,
the table was always filled with laughter.
Oh and I noticed one of their customs,
which is that they serve soup, main dish and desert respectively.

Day 4.
Unfortunately,
Today, we had to move to a different hotel.
And so I said unfortunately.
Reason being is that the Albion hotel was like one star downgrade,
and its in the middle of nowhere.

Lunch.

Public Performance.
It was in a church of some sort.
We were off tune for the first 2 songs,
probably because most of us were nervous.
But the rest were nice, or so they say.

Soon after, we got to hear the South African chorus.
They're pretty entertaining with their moves, drums and other special effects.

Dinner.
Oh, I forgot to mention the journey from the bus to the Church,
which was by foot mine you.
We were not in the least, prepared.
I thought we were going to a place nearby.
I didnt bring my glove, my thick socks nor my hat.
Luckily, I brought the thick coat.
Which didnt help much.
You see, the thing about your body is that there are 3 sensitive parts,
which you must really try to keep warm.
First is your feet.
If you're having a long journey on foot,
thick socks wont help that much.
Its better if you put a heat pack in your shoe.
Next is your hands.
One good idea is to put heat packs in your pocket together with your hands.
That'll keep it nice and warm.
Trust me, no matter how thick your gloves are,
It does not keep your hand warm in a long run.
Lastly, is your face.
However, I dont really know a good way to protect it.
Maybe try using a face mask?

Day 5.
aka.
Competition Day.

Breakfast as usual.

Rehersal.

Early lunch.

Competition!

As usual,
We were all nervous.
Even the conductor was nervous. I think.
He gave the sopranos the wrong note.
Or maybe the piano was off tune,
which he had mentioned before the competition.
However, it was his fault so, I dont think the judges mind us restarting that song.
Also, my throat kinda dried up due to lack of moisture in the room I guess,
and I had to sing falsetto for most of the high parts.
Ironically, Im a Tenor 1.
Still, we did our very best and Im very proud of my Choir.
After the competition, it felt as though a huge burden is off our shoulder
and everyone had a spark on each of their face.
"ENJOY"
Thats is whats probably on their mind at that point in time.

Dinner.
This time,
the jokes were even wilder.
We can laugh our hearts out now without having much concern of loosing our voices,
and so we did.
Okay, this one I'll put some photos as I remembered the place.

We sang 2 songs to thank the teachers, conducter
and the rest of the people who made this trip an enjoyable and pleasent one.
Im not quite sure what was the first but i think it was the love of a song.
The second one was Ave Maria.
Both were out of tune.
Yet, we sounded pleasent in their ears,
I think.

Unfortunately,
Miss Fong had gastric,
and we had to leave without her and some other teachers.
Only Miss tan and Mr Ramesh was with us.

Results.
It was at a different place called the Top Hotel.
There was some sort of traditional dance to start the whole thing off.
Followed by other nonsensical things which I was not aware off,
as I listen to my mp4 with Wan Ting.

Suddenly, I saw the rest of the choir standing.
I took out the earpiece, just in time to hear the results.
SILVER.
Thats what we got.
Girls screamed at the top of their lungs,
causing many eyes to stare at them.
Embarrassed, I quickly sat down.
Which was quite unsupportive of me,
and Im sorry.

Hotel.
It was all Dan's idea which was to trick our teacher that we got a C.O.P.
And it worked.
Caught them by suprise when we handed them the actual certificate.
Well, at least Miss Chen.
Mr Goh was calm,
claiming he was sick.
But looking at Miss Chen's shocked face was enough to make us laugh.
And of course, we cheered.

Day 6.

Breakfast.

Road Trip 2.

This time, we went to see Prague's ancient castle.

Soon after, we went to Charle's Bridge.

Before dinner,
we had some time to burn, so,
the tourguide gave us some time to spend at the night market.
It was very crowded but spacious enough for us to walk in groups.
I bought some things.
A snowglobe, magnet and afew others.
Basically, there was nothing much to buy.
However, there was this ancient clock, called the Astronomical Clock.

Dinner.

Black Light Theatre,
of which I have no pictures of.

Day 7.

Flight home.

Farewell Albion Hotel.

Farewell winter.

Farewell roommate.

Farewell Prague.

Day 8.

Home.
(want the details?)

Thousand words

2008-11-23T16:59:00.012+08:00

Day 4.
Suddenly,
there was a knock on the door.
It was her as I had expected.
Her whole body was scarred now,
but what do i care...

Okay.
No stories for today.
Just pictures.
As you know,
a picture speak a thousand words.
So,
im actually writing thousands of stories.
Wow.
Should have thought of that before,
during my sec 4 days.
Oh well.
Bye.

Rainbow night

2008-11-19T00:10:00.000+08:00

Day 3.

I heard a scream in the distance.
I wonder if its hers.
I looked out of the window.
Its dark but,
I like it...

First of all,
I would like to mention this to my one and only reader,
if you're reading that is,
Yan Jun,
so long and see you in a month or so.

Next,
okay,
this is might seem kind of cliche,
but,
I've seen Madagascar 2.
Wow!
"I LIKE TO MOVE IT MOVE IT"
Seriously,
I like to move IT if u know what i mean.

Lastly,
If anyone,
other than Yan Jun were to read this blog,
I would like to say that this shit over here,
is not like those typical blog you see elsewhere.
I'm writing this as a form of diary for myself.
Yes,
you can laugh as it sounds kinda stupid.
So, yea.
That is why I did not "advertise" this blog,
nor did I put up a tag board.
But the context of which I am writing,
is as though I'm actually engaging you in a conversation.
Don't be mistaken.
Now, how did I always end the post?

Oh right.
Oh well.
Bye.

Orange Evening

2008-11-16T18:10:00.000+08:00

Day 2.
Though the night is still young,
satisfied, i let her go,
into the wild,
where danger lurks around every corner,
ready to suprise any unsuspecting victim,
and ...

Wow.
Im starting to like writing that shit down.
Maybe I'll write a book someday,
or not.
Nah,
I won't and most probably can't write a book.
But, I'm going to continue with that rubbish as an intro.
I find it kind of,
I don't know,
cool?

Okay.
Now, where was I?
Oh.
I haven't even started.
Lets start.
Today,
I,
I,
I...
I am totally bored right now.
Fuck man.
So much for,
"WOW! O' LEVELS OVER.
NOW WE CAN ENJOY OUR FUCKING HOLIDAY!"

Aside from prom, this week will be a total bore.

Great.
Just great.
Oh well.
Bye.

Green night

2008-11-16T00:59:00.000+08:00

Day 1.

As night falls, hope is dragged with it.
"Help!" she screamed but, who will hear her?
I pulled down her skirt and ...

Totally nonsensical.

Okay, let me start again.

One things for sure is that I am not a Total psycho.
Maybe sometimes, but not the other.
However, I am infact a little crazy during the other.
But not so sometimes.
Which probably means that I am mad all the time,
or not at all.

Weird.

Now,
lets me start again, again,
and this time, for real.
I am Muhammad Zulhady Bin Zulkifli.
Born a boy, raised as a male and a man to be.
Born an Asian, or should i say a Muslim,
it'll be a long way till im getting any "magic" happening.
However fucked up it may sound like,
its worst having to resist the temptation.
But, fear not fellow muslims,
I am infact,
100% ( - % of some bad deeds ),
in total control of my emotions and desires.

Oh
fuck.
not again.
total rubbish.
oh well.
bye.